It goes as said
Feelings are dead
But heroin
Brings them back.

I listened to a song that I first heard in high school ( Hell to Pay by Converge) and I could immediately remember how I felt when I would play that song on repeat senior year. Its like I went back in time. My insurance is currently messed up which means I do not have my suboxone prescription which is causing severe withdrawals. I dont know.... Im trying to stay clean but at the same time I say whats the fucking point?

Then I went through old journals....I have a hundred half written through sappy journals about how much I want to die and bla bla bla... and I found that little scribble -

It goes as said
Feelings are dead
But heroin
Brings them back.

I was so wrong. I have to stay clean.....